I'm finding it harder and harder to keep going. Last night I seriously considered suicide. The only things stopping me are 1) My pet parrot - he deserves the best life I can give him and I wouldn't trust anyone else to do better for him. 2) My parents, I wouldn't want to hurt them like that, but if not for #1, I still might've.
Oblivion is desirable. Life sucks. And what makes it all the worse is I KNOW I have it easy compared to others. I was born with a silver spoon; upper middle family, only child, no financial worries.
I've always felt like I'm missing something essential to being human; I'm socially inept and it goes beyond that but is also hard to explain. Just mentally dealing with people is... hard.
2 years ago I killed my previous 2 parrots, not on purpose but my actions caused their deaths. The guilt is terrible. I've done the therapy shit. I've been medicated, none of it really helps. Their loss hyper-sensitized me to further loss. My parents are not healthy people and they've lived longer than you'd reasonably expect and I dread having to deal with their deaths.
Marijuana is legal in my state, it feels so good to feel good even for a short time, but higher highs mean lower lows - I feel a bit worse when off it and wish I could just be high 24/7 but there is tolerance and effect plateauing to deal with.
I don't know what I expect from this, just shouting into the void I guess
Yes, yes, angry man yells at clouds.......but remember I love all you guys, I want you all to be here, but we have got to chill on the madness.
I explain my request in the video, I speak only slightly better than I type so I've put it on video instead of writing like a 5-year-old (per usual).
For now, we will be reigning things in, then loosen them again when we've got things under control. Half of you have blocked the other half, we're all driving each other crazy and we need some tighter guidelines
- Spamming images over and over of the same things/persons
- Language changes (the pointless, endless racist stuff)
- It's da Jooos
- Images being shared
+First offence 1 week ban
+Second, 1 month
+Third, permanent
Let's respect Locals requests, my requests and respecting others that would like to participate. We're going off the rails at this point.
A 'dating coach' shares how by supporting and being kind to her husband, she's actually secretly sabotaging his desires while fulfilling her own.
You guys asked, so here you go, Odd Man Out podcast for those that just want to listen or are having streaming issues.
A little bit of this, a little bit of that. Lots of news topics to cover across the board but I think all are worth discussing.
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A bit of a scattered video, but I want to address men and losing their emotional awareness, Fresh and Fit's fallout due to losing control of their emotions and how Rich Cooper from Entrepreneurs In Cars calls me out (in the correct logical way) and a response to that.
Weekly Stream Schedule:
- Friday - Movie Night (if UFC is on Saturday Night)
- Saturday - Movie Night (Unless UFC is on then it will move to Friday Night)
- Wednesday - 80's Night
- Sundays (football during season)
- (short notice stream) 1x per week on random days - Chill live chatroom and Gaming Night on both locals and Rumble
- (short notice streams) 1x per week on Rumble - Chil live chatroom and Gaming Night (with stream key which works on Rumble only) but I'll likely open a chat room here for you to chat if you are or are not watching.
I could use your help. If you come across interesting content you'd like to see discussed and broken down, please post it below. We might get duplicates and things I may decide not to discuss, but it will help me find new ideas and perhaps new topics. Please stay away from horrible women raping or murdering, it's too depressing to really do content on; women suffering from bad decisions is of course certainly acceptable. Video compilations other ...
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